There are situations when we feel like acting a little out of way, a little revengeful, overcome by a deep need of taking revenge. Inherent in all human beings is this need to get even with those who hurt us. In the process of becoming civilized (if we can call ourselves civilized) , we became better at hiding our true dark feelings under the cover of pleasant and balance personality. But still there are moments when we feel like acting upon those instincts. I have just penned down a few such moments when I felt that devil in me was provoking me:
(Before you read further, keep in mind that such thoughts have not disappeared so be all encouraging with comments)
1. Have you ever had moments when you felt like ignoring a good friend because of a nasty argument? I have had many such moments, but never did I just ignore the friend, I ensured that the person I ignored knew that I was ignoring him/her. Else why put the effort into the exercise.
2. Do you sometimes feel like giving fire to a rumour about something so ridiculous that you do not even feel like defending yourself, maybe like having an affair with a close “friend” or being accused of acting rude when you were just thinking? I just love just occasions when I can glib about anything though the sensible part of me asks me to stay away.
3. One of the best is picking up a fight with someone who backstabs you, Specially when you know that the other person can not match you in screaming and would back off. But the high that you get in putting the person in place publicly is something that is hard to compare.
4. Ever played tit for tat???Acted like typical hindi serial vamp to someone just because the person irritates you with snide remarks? Done something like bitching publicly and telling half true stories about him/her. ( Do not ask if I had done the same)
5. Have you ever put someone deliberately in a fix and then sweetly offered to help him/her out to gain brownie points?
I can go on and on in this list but then the Devil does not know when to stop. I don’t think it is wrong to sometimes act on these dark thoughts, what I do not like is not acknowledging that we sometimes act like this. I have deliberately not mentioned names here coz the people who were involved know what I am talking about and the devil in me wants to play a little Word Play with them. It is not difficult to put them in a difficult spot but then Angel in me would not be happy with it. (Dr Jekyll & Mr. Hyde, you see).
To jao jee lo apni zindagi, maaf kiya….for the time being.
1 comment:
I totally agree with you Rachita. And I can actually think of examples of each type, which I've done myself.
Actually, it's the sadistic pleasure that gives us a kick to do it again & again and enjoy the pain & wonder on the faces of those who've hurt you.
But thankfully our white angels takes over the black devils, else this world would have been full of sadists!
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