My Album, My Choice

There are days we flick through our life's album, the one where all the important people and occasions are captured as photographs(our memories). Some of which will make us smile, on some tears would be shed, some would be seen with regret and some will make us fall in love again - with life and ourselves.

 

Over past some days , I have been flicking through my album a lot.(This sort of introspection is possible when you have time in hand. And that is something I have in abundance now a days). There were some wonderful moments captured there, great locations, awesome people and lots of emotions and colours.( Let me take the opportunity to say - I have a wonderful set of friends touche'wood). The album was an eye opening experience. I found though I had a lot of smiles, friends, family and love but somehow anger, bitterness, animosity and tears also have made a place in there. How did that happen? Maybe the same way lot of unnecessary things make place in our cupboards and almirahs. We stop taking out time for ourselves and clean our memory drive. We need to delete the pictures that make us feel negative emotions. But to do this we have to take out some time and get down to task in hand.

 

The task isn't easy and I have been doing a lot of it lately. I have gone through some heavy doses of emotions as I went on the journey that my album took me on. There were some places I adored and would have loved to stay there forever, some places which taught me the lessons of life, some that made me believe in myself again, some that gave me feel good to last for a while. But to my shock, there were some I didn't like and thought...what are these doing in my collection. They were a part of life that better be left behind, not even carried forward in memories. Just looking at them made me remember the times best be forgotten, when you get fooled, when you learn that life isn't all white, when you wish you could hide. These pictures fill you with negativity and better be deleted. So, I did a lot of deletion. Not of people but occasions coz no matter what - each person you meet atleast brings one moment of positivity in your life. After deletions, the album looks like me - sometimes happy, sometimes sad, sometimes sweet , sometimes mad but totally crazy. As, I have already mentioned earlier, I am in love with myself so my album has to be me.

 

So, the moral of the story is - It's my Album and hence my choice of what pictures stay there ad which I delete. Hope that you all do the same. Choose your photographs with care.

 

 

P.S : Papa is right when he says " it makes you feel better and lighter once you throw out the dirt from home, cupboards or even life". Love you dad.

Saving my sanity

I have lately been infatuated with ... a game called Spider Solitaire. And the whole scenario is turning crazier day by day. I know it sounds silly but the game is coming between me and my thoughts. Almost as much as an unread book on my bedside. For those who do not know of it (though you would be in minority)…this game comes with the Windows Software and is highly addictive. Our forefathers were right that the game of cards is dangerous. Had there been any money involved this game, I would have made and lost fortune many times over.

 

Now, what prompted me to write about this, was a movie that I saw lately. A scene there had an alcoholic saying that talking about it is the first step to fighting the addiction. So I decided to write about mine. If you have played any game on mobile or computer and got hooked to it, you would understand my problem. I am always saying to myself, this would be my last game (of the day/hour), or another 5 minutes or just till I finish a game under ‘these’ many moves. But I always find a reason to deal cards for a new game. It is horrifying how I waste time on this, but somehow I manage. I am genius at it. (Not game , wasting time). The creators/designers are very intelligent, they have made game simple enough to get hooked to, any complexities may be added as per wish. Plus you don’t have to download it, it comes with the system. Wow , what more could I ask for. Sometimes I think had I needed to search and download or buy this game – would I be still interested?  May be yes or maybe no. I am not so sure.

At the moment I am fighting the urge to play this game, sometimes I succeed and sometimes I fail. But I try, believe me I do. I am doing my best to save my sanity. I don't want the game to control me. Maybe I am thinking too much about the game. Infact Microsoft should pay me to think so much and then even write about their game. Would deleting the game work?

But can I? I am not sure.

(The funny part is that I don't even enjoy playing the game, I just end up clicking on new game)

P.S: As long as book wins over the game each time, It is a win - mine. And I just won.