Saving my sanity

I have lately been infatuated with ... a game called Spider Solitaire. And the whole scenario is turning crazier day by day. I know it sounds silly but the game is coming between me and my thoughts. Almost as much as an unread book on my bedside. For those who do not know of it (though you would be in minority)…this game comes with the Windows Software and is highly addictive. Our forefathers were right that the game of cards is dangerous. Had there been any money involved this game, I would have made and lost fortune many times over.

 

Now, what prompted me to write about this, was a movie that I saw lately. A scene there had an alcoholic saying that talking about it is the first step to fighting the addiction. So I decided to write about mine. If you have played any game on mobile or computer and got hooked to it, you would understand my problem. I am always saying to myself, this would be my last game (of the day/hour), or another 5 minutes or just till I finish a game under ‘these’ many moves. But I always find a reason to deal cards for a new game. It is horrifying how I waste time on this, but somehow I manage. I am genius at it. (Not game , wasting time). The creators/designers are very intelligent, they have made game simple enough to get hooked to, any complexities may be added as per wish. Plus you don’t have to download it, it comes with the system. Wow , what more could I ask for. Sometimes I think had I needed to search and download or buy this game – would I be still interested?  May be yes or maybe no. I am not so sure.

At the moment I am fighting the urge to play this game, sometimes I succeed and sometimes I fail. But I try, believe me I do. I am doing my best to save my sanity. I don't want the game to control me. Maybe I am thinking too much about the game. Infact Microsoft should pay me to think so much and then even write about their game. Would deleting the game work?

But can I? I am not sure.

(The funny part is that I don't even enjoy playing the game, I just end up clicking on new game)

P.S: As long as book wins over the game each time, It is a win - mine. And I just won.