As I enter the Big 4’s

 As I slept Friday night, I was curious about how it would feel getting up in the morning. Would I feel any different? Will I be confident about myself more or feel disenchanted with the world around? Would people treat me differently? Maybe I will behave more maturely? With so many questions attacking  my subconscious, I had weird dreams, though I can’t recall what I saw? But what was so different about Friday, you see I had entered the Big 4’s finally in my life. We talk about “The Big 4’s “ , in professional world, the ultimate top 4 companies of the field we are in, so which company did I get into? That too in pandemic era? I am on break , professionally🤔 so?

The Big 4 do not refer to my professional commitments but my personal milestones….I reached my 40th birthday. Am I supposed to announce this to the world or act a lil feminine and be coy about my age ? But then that has never been me. The Saturday morning wasn’t any different, so I thought as the world talks about 40s being the new 20’s, maybe it will hit me in a while. So I went through my daily tasks, awaiting that burst of maturity, wisdom and energy  to make me feel rejuvenated , it is Sunday evening now and I am still awaiting it….I guess I move slow😜.

But the last 2 or maybe more days have made me realise, it isn’t about hitting a mark in your life whether in terms of age or professional milestones, your being happy depends on just you. I think we need to work on definition of being successful on the way as half the frustrations arise from others  definition of success…your success.  We need to stop making others responsible for making us happy. Be your own favourite person , it isn’t easy but then when did life say that it was easy. I thought being 40, would make me feel more powerful and aware about myself, the only thing it has done is that now I am not conscious about announcing my age to the world. So I guess I have taken step 1 of liberalisation from norms. 

Maybe rest of things that I read in one of the numerous silly “ hitting 40’s” articles will follow and I can see a new me, and maybe my blogs would make more sense to me and everyone. 

Till then happy discovering yourself.